Accomplishments.

Things I accomplished recently:

• Minecraft... Hours and hours of minecraft
• Found a mushroom Island
• Developed a crush on random person on the server
• Got laughed at by little brother for this
• Read Kafka for Humanities
• Read a good portion of the Golem for Religious Studies Capstone
• Read some of the Undefeated Mind
• Set up a shrine at my moms
• prayed at that shrine ever day this weekend including thursday and friday (the snow days)
• Only had like one crying breakdown... Didn't have one saturday!
• Did a bunch of laundry
• Cleaned my mom's kitchen
• Cleaned my mom's laundry room
• Spent quality time with my brothers
• Had a heart-to-heart with mom
•  Got hugs and snuggles and prayers from family
• Resisted irrational urges having to do with phone and certian people for the most part.

That time in life where you don't know anything

That is where I feel that I am right now.

But I still have my loves and my hopes, even if many of them feel as though they have been ripped away at the moment. And my trust and confidence in other is at an all time low. At least as specific others. *sigh*

BUT. This is a place for me, and thus it shall be a place where I talk about things I like about myself and things I have accomplished.

I have currently been reading:
(GAH. LibX isn't on this computer. Boo. lemme go download it...)



Lickerman, Alex. 2012. The undefeated mind: on the science of constructing an indestructible self. Deerfield Beach, FL: Health Communications. 

Gunaratana, Henepola. 2002. Mindfulness in plain English. Boston: Wisdom Publications

 And these books have been helpful in me not going completely crazy with the sads. Thank you Buddhism. And just general people who help my brain to be less of a scumbag....

Because frack you my brain. frack. you.

And there are a whole bunch more that fit my life. But yeah. I need to get this my brain stuff under wrap. But all I can think about is that I don't know how and I feel sad. It's a terrible thought loop. 

And all this time I am wasting feeling sad and "trying to figure stuff out" is essentially removing all hope of getting my school work done. Ever. 

That was over dramatic. yes. But this is my blog. frack it. 

Umm, professional time. 

Yeah. I'm supposed to write a prospectus for my class in an hour. less than an hour. about something to do with robots. And I read this cool story about a khmer cow/human that fought a robotic oxen and lost. I think I want to talk about that. I want to talk about robots in khmer folktales, but that is the only one I have found so far. I hope my prof doesn't mind that I am not going to have this paper done by today... :/ Is it bad that I have kind of already decided that?