I am an INFJ

INFJ

Introvert(33%)  iNtuitive(75%)  iNtuitive  Feeling(62%)  Judging(1%)

• You have moderate preference of Introversion over Extraversion (33%)
• You have distinctive preference of Intuition over Sensing (75%)
• You have distinctive preference of Feeling over Thinking (62%)
• You have marginal or no preference of Judging over Perceiving (1%)

So I am mostly Introverted, only mildly Judging, and very Intuitive and Feeling. Woohoo

INFJs are effective in occupations involving substantial intellectual work, caring for other people, and requiring creativity. INFJs build successful careers in a broad range of organizations. Social and community care services, counseling, teachers of humanities and social sciences, healthcare workers (both in administration and in medical services), various service-oriented professions as well as religious services and social movements are just some of the examples of occupations favourable to INFJs. Quite often they are found in mid-rank management positions. For some of them occupations in sciences or academia are also favourable.

Awwwwyeeeah, Academia is a good place for me. <3

Ghost Sickness

Gotta do this project for Anthro Capstone in which I become an expert on 'Ghost Sickness' and present it to the class. We are doing a unit on Culture-Bound syndromes.

Most of what I have found so far in the way of sources looks like the following:

aka useless.

Wikipedia has an article. Not very much help.

The library has some stuff, according to my MERLIN search... But I can't check anything out because I have stuff overdue for Religious Studies research paper on Thai Buddhist Nuns... Which I have already renewed twice and that is the renew limit. I could go beg them to let me check the books in and then out again. But that would require going home, getting the books, bringing them back, and fighting with librarians. Or I could just keep the books and go copy/scan the useful parts I actually need.

But I am so comfy right where I am.

The internet should be more useful.

I don't even know how to approach this project. Asked Dr. Kelley about 'Ghost Sickness,' and as it appears from my research, he didn't think it was an actual thing either. So much for anthropological cultural realtivism. Ahahaha, anthropologists don't actually discuss things in terms that make any sense! We'd much rather apply western terminology to things and pretend like it's a real thing when it isn't! Gotta love those generalizations.

Or maybe I can just blame the psychologists that wrote the...

(I keep wanting to say DMV. I do not mean the drivers and motor vehical office. Silly Acronyms.)

There are these death-related rituals that Lakota tribes perform: http://1onewolf.com/lakota/spirit7-3.htm

But idk how this relates to medicine or biological anthropology or cultural-bound syndromes in the proper sense. So I don't know how helpful this is.

I am afraid this presintation is going to result in me talking about death rituals for fifteen minutes and not talking at all about anything related to medicine or that one document they use to diagnose mental disorders that I am too lazy to go look up the acronym for. Because blackboard is a nightmare and a half to navigate and I have too many windows open as it is.

BRB. I am going to go post some links in another entry so I can feel okay closing them. I don't want to loose my links I found to the artharva veda. And I am trying to keep organized. So I should post it in another blog. But I am lazy.

ATHARVA VEDA LINKS ARE HERE
Devanagari Version of Atharva Veda That I cannot Navigate yet
Parent Link to above Vedas in Devanagari that I cannot navigate
Sanskrit Documents Link List

there were some other ones I wanted to post, but I can find them from the Sanskrit document.
Like the english translations of the artharva veda, from which I pulled the hymns to Ratri (because she is my favorite and I want to study/worship her someday)

Also that weird website I found where that guy is blogging about his druidic encounters with random gods, of which she is one. * Modern Religion.... it don't make no sense!*

*author intends these lines to be sung.

Brain Dump: My mind is full of art

Things I am thinking about currently... Instead of Studying for finals or writing my research paper or any number of other things I could be looking at...

• Emily Dickinson Poetry
• Vedic Hymns Referring to Ratri, Vedic Goddess of the Night
• Her connection to Diana/Artemis

• How I want to publish a book of poetry someday
• How it is kind of sad I am graduating next semester, because there are so many classes I haven't taken yet, and won't get to, at least as an undergraduate. If everything goes according to plan, as it should...
• How I really want to write my paper next semester on the phenomenon of the Naga in Cambodian culture and folk lore, and trace it back to Sanskrit mythology <-- Excuse to translate things and be awesome. Also Feminism and indigenous religion being syncratic. Gotta love the syncratism!
• how it is going to be a pain in the ass to collect sources for this and I should start now

• How I want Amazon Gift cards for Christmas. And Abe books cards. And fancy yarn
• I want to knit all the things. 
• Zergling
• Scarf/ thing that has a fancy name I can't remember that is a loop that you wrap around your neck for mom
• Scarf for cousin
• Something for aunts
• Nether Hat for Joey
• Umbreon for Rayray
• ALL THE POKEMONS
• Finish Vaporeon
• Finish Oddish
• Get Wynaut back from Laura
• Etc

• How I want to sew myself a fancy hippie skirt in browns and blues
• How I want to start going to yoga again because I miss it so
• How much Sanskrit I have forgotten and how it is really sad. I look at a page of Devanagari,and I'm like I can read none of this. I used to know at least some of these letters. And how this is really sad.
• How I am looking forward to working on my statues over break. One down, three to go. I will have to talk to Mr. Director about when/if I can release pictures.  

Things on my mind right now for future reference:

I have an exam next week for Hindu Goddesses. Shit. I think it is on wednesday, but I need to check.

I should fill in my planner for this week, as it is going to be hellish.

Tonight is for fun, tomorrow is for family pictures, laundry, and studying... Eventually... too many things!!This is going to be difficult, considering I do not plan to get much sleep tonight. AAAAhhhh, why your bday have to be today, Mr. F?

I have 12 pages to write for Methods. Well, 8 pages. But the five I have are shit, I am pretty sure.

I need to finish that paper rewrite for Anthro Capstone on human evolution. Also the one I still haven't done on my grad letter and CV and what the hell ever else they wanted. GAAaaaah, that class. I wish it didn't exist.

Also Grad School Applications. Which I told myself I wasn't going to do, but still feel some pressure to do. I need to make a definative decision. GAH. I just want to go hide in rural illinoise and get my terminal masters and have spent MORE money getting a MORE useless degree from an AWESOME person. Gaaaaah. Decisions.

Also watch the Ohio website about when they post stuff for the khmer studies conference in the spring. April-ish. Want to submit an abstract for my project on Cambodian Diaspora living around here. 

Need to actually do that project. And stop giving up on it and being a lazy bum. But when am I supposed to go to Kea's or the temple when I am so busy and distracted????? I have been saying I will go this weekend, shit I will go next weekend for a month now. GAAAAh.

this is my face. *RAAAAAAAAAGE*

Also this: Norman, K. R. 1971. The elders' verse 11: Therīgātā. London: Pali Text Society. I want it.

I've just wasted 40 minutes blogging. *twitch*

On Buddhism After Patriarchy

Gross, Rita M. Buddhism after Patriarchy : A Feminist History, Analysis, and Reconstruction of Buddhism [in English].  Albany, N.Y: State University of New York Press, 1993.

So far, it is I guess more helpful then

Gross, Rita M. A Garland of Feminist Reflections : Forty Years of Religious Exploration [in English].  Berkeley: University of California Press, 2009.

Was, but still not SUPER helpful. I am not looking for diadantic reflections on feminism, or anything of the sort. I can't believe I still have so much to read of this book. I have no idea how I am going to organize this paper, or how I am going to get 12 pages of meaningful material by Thursday. It's saturday.

I want to do well on this paper, I want it to be helpful for the work I want to do. Its just super frusterating, because I feel like I keep finding the same uniform "insights" that do not have evidence to back them up other than the Therigata, which I keep reminding myself I need to read, but then I start thinking about how I want to read it in Pali, then I think about that book I checked out before... I should find the citation for that book. I don't remember what it was called....

Looking. Cannot find it. Wish I had turned on the 'keep track of what I have checked out' feature on my merlin a long time ago...

Sigh. Can't figure it out. hopefully if I go wander around that part of Ellis for long enough, whoever has it checked out will turn it back in and it will be there. Or I could go look at that paper I wrote for signe's class last semester... I think I must have cited it in there. I wish someone would have told me about endnote semesters ago. Thank god for endnote. Also for Rabia. <3

That paper isn't on my computer I don't think, it's on my hard drive. I give up.

I should check and not give up. And T is probably right, if I am feeling productive, I should probs keep being productive because who knows how long this will last. 

SO MUCH READING TO DO. MUST READ ALL THE THINGS. AND PROCESS THEM INTELLIGENTLY.

>_<

Orientation

The goal of this blog is to help me organize my mind and to be a work space for my scholarly thoughts.

I hope to keep track of what I am reading and what I am thinking about it, so that I can start to figure out where I want to go with all of this.

It might help the big outside world to give some introduction. Not that anyone will be reading this persay, but if someone finds it helpful or amusing, I guess I would be okay with that. It would be lovely to find some like minded souls, or even some different minded souls who can at least discuss what I am trying to probe intellectually. I sometimes feel as if I am adrift in a place where no one else thinks about the things I do.

Lets start here. I am a senior at the University of Missouri, majoring in Anthropology and Religious Studies, with a minor in South Asian Studies. My particular area of interest lies in Buddhism, particularly of the Southeast Asian Theravada variety, even more specifically in the Cambodian variety.

I have traveled to Cambodia twice now, and I hope to go back there next year with a Fulbright Research grant. *fingers crossed* My spoken khmer is passable, and my written khmer is nonexistant. Same goes for my spoken japanese, which is quickly slipping away from me after four years of study in high school... four years ago. My written japanese is more existant than my written khmer, but not much. I have some reading/translation ability in Sanskrit and Pali. I've taken two semesters of Sanskrit at the college level, and am currently enrolled in my first semester of Pali as a reading course.

I have many intellectual and personal goals which relate to my own studies more and less closely.

People (academics) I admire greatly: (Partial List I hope to add to significantly)
At my own university:
Signe Cohen
Dan Cohen
Mary Shenk
Bob Flanagan
Dennis Kelley
Rabia Gregory
Nathan Hofer

And abroad:
David Chandler
Sedara Kim
Judy Ledgerwood
Anne Hansen
Rita Gross
Karma Lekshe Tsomo
Penny Edwards
John Marston
Philip Kear